Ok, my life is mad hell effing boring. I don't know how to describe how boring it is, but just boring. Almost everyday, I have to stay at home and face either the tv or computer. Doing nothing, watching the show over and over again. No phone, even if i get to use one, nobody i will be texting with. This is hell.... I don't know who the hell will care even if I'm dead la. Mom will be going out, dad will be drinking and brother will be out too or stay in his room. I'll be all so alone and so lonely. And from all this, I learn to stand on my own, because no matter what, I'll be alone someday. Last yr, I have all the great friends around me, all the love which I don't need with me, but as times goes by, I'm left with nothing. And this is the time which I need them most, but when I'm crying and wanting to call somebody up, I stare at my phone and there's no one which I'll be able to turn to, then I'll start to miss last yr, bcoz there's so many people around me, and I'll want u by my side, but yes, that's impossible. Don't believe when someone tell u that they will be by ur side whenever u need them, because so far, to me they are just bullshit. I'm in love with someone who is dead, and oh ur words killed me.
Oh somebody just don't know who meant her well. Joke.
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